God, I've never felt so restless in my entire life. Normally, I've got to track to put all my energy into, but after I got hurt all I can do is just sit around and watch. No practicing, no meets, I've got nothing to do anymore besides study - not to mention AP's have crippled my social life. And now that my 4 AP (fucking 4!) tests are actually coming up I know that all I should be doing is studying but I just really don't have the drive. Sure, I try, but I can't study for more than like a half hour without wanting to just get up and run around and do something. But there's nothing to do besides study. I feel like I'm stuck in a cage. Nowhere to go, nothing to do but just watch. I'm tired of watching.
Senior year is so close to being over but its driving me up the freaking wall. All I wanted was to go out in a blaze of glory. Kick ass at states, destroy my tests and go Hell Yea I Graduated! but now I can't.
Just feels like I've got nothing left.
Why Me?
Why Now?